Beautiful day!

I so wanted to go out paddling today.  The wind was cooperating and I got down to the beach earlier and immediately carried my board down to the waters edge.  Then I noticed some surge in some of the waves breaking at the shore and a person who had just come in from swimming told me that the water visibility was not good.  Surge at the shoreline and kicked up water visibility usually mean there is some activity happening under the water….and there was a bit of a swell.  Not much of a swell, but it was definitely there.  I knew I could get out past it and the water would be perfect…..I really wanted to go!  I even watched it for a time and put my leash on and with board in hand, went out knee deep…… I really wanted to go out.  After some serious contemplation and disappointment……I opted to not go out paddling.  I was bummed, but I went swimming instead.  Swimming is the one activity that I can do that my body doesn’t hurt at all.  It’s a relief to be moving through the water and not hurt whatsoever and of course, water always makes me feel so good!  I hate my hip right now.  It is hanging me up in all sorts of ways and if I was a normal person…..I would have given up on paddling weeks ago…..and given in to defeat.  I guess that’s not me…… I don’t want my hip to rob me of the things I enjoy!  That said, it is already doing that on a daily basis but I am a fighter.  People look at me like I’m crazy…..hobbling up the sand…..dragging my board into the water…..cringing when I sit down in my low beach chair.  My hip surgery is only a few weeks away….but some days it seems like an eternity away!  I will now be away from Maui for a week for the holidays…..and I don’t know what shape I will be in after I return…..but I will continue to try to do what I can.  Thank you for being a part of my pity party…… at least my hip can be fixed…..until then…..I deal with it as best I can.  Happy Holidays!